my bestg friends wantg me to go out with them, i don't want to and our other friend is who they hope i can get to join us , but i don't feel like being bait, besides then he will think i wanted the meeting and he thinks he owes me - especially since today i took lunch to him at his request and the girls know and they want all the details and i don't want to give them any--and mdy friend who tghey want is trhying to meet a new girl, it hurts me cause, i still have not fouind anyone and he and i get to do things, but i see our time is drifting and maybe that's why i want to avoid him. I need to detach....so it won't hurt so much when he leaves--now i just want to sit and thnink and write--tommorrow i will take two teenagers to get their wisdom teeth out and i really need to get out tonight and have this tough of war going on inside, should i stay home, like always, or get out only i get so intimidated, hey can you see who is writing this???what gives here--shit i need my privacy in a big way, tis is so messed u p let look into tghis

 
my bestg friends wantg me to go out with them, i don't want to and our other friend is who they hope i can get to join us , but i don't feel like being bait, besides then he will think i wanted the meeting and he thinks he owes me - especially since today i took lunch to him at his request and the girls know and they want all the details and i don't want to give them any--and mdy friend who tghey want is trhying to meet a new girl, it hurts me cause, i still have not fouind anyone and he and i get to do things, but i see our time is drifting and maybe that's why i want to avoid him. I need to detach....so it won't hurt so much when he leaves--now i just want to sit and thnink and write--tommorrow i will take two teenagers to get their wisdom teeth out and i really need to get out tonight and have this tough of war going on inside, should i stay home, like always, or get out only i get so intimidated, hey can you see who is writing this???what gives here--shit i need my privacy in a big way, tis is so messed u p let look into tghis

 
my bestg friends wantg me to go out with them, i don't want to and our other friend is who they hope i can get to join us , but i don't feel like being bait, besides then he will think i wanted the meeting and he thinks he owes me - especially since today i took lunch to him at his request and the girls know and they want all the details and i don't want to give them any--and mdy friend who tghey want is trhying to meet a new girl, it hurts me cause, i still have not fouind anyone and he and i get to do things, but i see our time is drifting and maybe that's why i want to avoid him. I need to detach....so it won't hurt so much when he leaves--now i just want to sit and thnink and write--tommorrow i will take two teenagers to get their wisdom teeth out and i really need to get out tonight and have this tough of war going on inside, should i stay home, like always, or get out only i get so intimidated, hey can you see who is writing this???what gives here--shit i need my privacy in a big way, tis is so messed u p let look into tghis

 
my bestg friends wantg me to go out with them, i don't want to and our other friend is who they hope i can get to join us , but i don't feel like being bait, besides then he will think i wanted the meeting and he thinks he owes me - especially since today i took lunch to him at his request and the girls know and they want all the details and i don't want to give them any--and mdy friend who tghey want is trhying to meet a new girl, it hurts me cause, i still have not fouind anyone and he and i get to do things, but i see our time is drifting and maybe that's why i want to avoid him. I need to detach....so it won't hurt so much when he leaves--now i just want to sit and thnink and write--tommorrow i will take two teenagers to get their wisdom teeth out and i really need to get out tonight and have this tough of war going on inside, should i stay home, like always, or get out only i get so intimidated, hey can you see who is writing this???what gives here--shit i need my privacy in a big way, tis is so messed u p let look into tghis

 
i told a friend i wanted to write and "who knew?"--i feel so lucky but why some
creep could be reading this or someone with a first time try at the phychology of my social environment---give it up i know more than you - who took this idea of mine so many people said i was crazy, and everytime they come back and say, who elese is hearing your mind???? huh who else?? tell me....i love this shit!!! sorta scary but so cool....wait till ireally get comfy..

 
i told a friend i wanted to write and "who knew?"--i feel so lucky but why some
creep could be reading this or someone with a first time try at the phychology of my social environment---give it up i know more than you - who took this idea of mine so many people said i was crazy, and everytime they come back and say, who elese is hearing your mind???? huh who else?? tell me....i love this shit!!! sorta scary but so cool....wait till ireally get comfy..

 
i know this is so dumb, but where is the spell check, don't know why but suddenly i'm filled with anxioty about not finding spell check. Yes, i know it's because i know i certainly cannot spell.....look my hair is blonde and curly and with brown eyes, you can only only imagine the brown eyes on a white pup seal--shit i sorta look like that, ya my hair is curly, you know wet and all..spelling is just killing me...do you have a #2 pencil, good cause i only have two erasers.

 
so lately i have been in the matrix,,,so what--and to add to the constent madness, called life i enter unknown to me what to expect or how to operate, but someone who seems to have some insite i don't suggested out of sarcasim and envy, this site called ? "Blog" --so in avoidance of friends tryting to corner me for the night i went on line to blog and avoid them--

i like my friends, they're the best and some think i am to be whipped for having to avoid them at times, but how is it they have so much to say and desire to be in my aire-space---what's up with that, i mean i have no longing to be in theirs...is that bad, i'm actually content in my own air space...ha

but why am i content and yet so frustraited, i just don't have that need right now i guess..i had it and thank goodness i did so i recall how nice and overwehelmikng it can be, who knew i would ramble...your to good to me you big daddy!--like i would really say that, "big daddy" I mean who really does??